listen to your voice.

As I sit at Harrow station on a finally warm spring evening... I wait with my notebook and pen in hand thinking about these last few weeks as the sun starts to fade behind the station as it turns to dusk.

I think about how it's funny that your life can change in a matter of weeks. how you can feel so happy one week, and so utterly shit the next. people always say when your feeling angry, hurt or upset... these kind of blogs, diary notes are always most interesting. funny that.

well these last two weeks I got hurt by someone I really fell for, attended a funeral for someone who wasn't meant to die, got offered a programme on channel 5 and somehow managed to fit in all my classes, gym, work, training and a social life. sometimes weeks in london are so much harder than others. crazy city after all. sometimes you just need to stop. and make time for YOU. i think that's allowed after all.

The thing that I'm learning - is that although there are so many voices around you always in your ear. you have to listen and trust your own. and really believe in that. if one things come out of a crap couple of weeks - it's that the BEST thing to do. is to ALWAYS trust your instinct. because you don't ever let yourself down.

Maybe the reason why sometimes doors close, is so you find the one that leads you to your perfect road?
I quote Katy Perry. true that.

It's funny how sometimes london can feel like the loneliest place in the world. a city full of huge dreams, big opportunities and big dollar. a city where people don't ever tend to stop and look back, think. because to be honest - it seems there is always something to be striving for.

Somebody wise said to me this week - forget what has hurt you in the past, but never forget what it taught you. I think it's little quotes and reasons like this - that help people get by when the going gets a little tough. The best thing right now in life, is learning and experiencing new things every single day. good or bad - because i've realised it doesn't actually matter. because BOTH teach you a lesson about yourself and life. and in the end. that's exciting.

For now - another week in topshop, teaching, virgin active, spending all my wages in pineapple studios, trying to cook good dinners like my mother does, still searching for that bloody hairbrush and to be honest - to refresh all of the above with good friends, good wine and epic nights out around london town. because at the end of everything - good friends and good family , are vital to keep your soul happy.

oh  - and of course to build a westend career. but that can wait until tomorrow.

no day but today.

Milly Summer x

HAPPY CHAPPY.

IM BACK.

Sincere apologies - it seems London life caught up with me for a moment there. It happens.
WOW i have a lot to tell you. the most important being that i went on a DATE. that's right. check me out - already ticked off one thing on my summer list. and it's spring. kind of...point being i've completed a point on my list. that's all that counts. although i STILL don't own a hairbrush. fail

infact  - i haven't just been on one date i've been on 5... and it's going pretty well so i think finally i must be doing something right. apart from spilling white wine all over his lap on date number one in clapham. standard eh?

Excitement over. that's all i'm saying so far. so sit tight... because actually if my guy stumbles across this blog. i'll probably be dumped or he'll run a MILE now he's read this.shit.

Topshop is unfortunately still work... i know i feel sorry for me too. alongside teaching my fabulous kids on a saturday- whose freestyle puts me to absolute shame and they're 8. (note to self.)

But all in all... life is GOOD. I have lots of exciting things in the pipeline... the best one being that I am going to L.A in September to spend an ENTIRE month TRAINING. beautifulllll. that is what life's about. doing what you LOVE and loving what you do.

I guess this is kinda short and sweet - but sometimes that's the best way to be. i think.

peace out.

Summer x