She's back. Sorry about the sudden absence... London life caught up with me for a second there. It happens.
SUCH a mad few weeks. most important one being my birthday. just kidding, kinda. It actually was the BOMB though. Somewhere amidst all the jubilee flag waving, drinking, partying, dining and eating it truely was the BEST weekend and I feel truly lucky to have such special friends in my life. so thank you - you know who you are. Let's not forget old queenie too, big up to her for giving me a four day weekend to celebrate. always knew she was a gem. P.s - I got a hairbrush. only took me six years.
Auditions - WOAH. Seem to have drastically appeared out of nowhere. I go from sounding like a total out of work performer to a nutcase- non for a couple of weeks then four in a week. but before you get excited - no I didn't get any of them. Someone up there really is making this hard for me.... they're making me work VERY hard and wait a VERY long time for my lucky break a.k.a a JOB. If they are reading this on their little private heaven cloud - I'd realllly appreciate it if you could make it happen now. Honest I would.
I saw a great friend this week in two of my auditions, and she taught me a rather interesting phrase of hers. 'audition vampires'. You know the kind who suck all the belief and soul out of you in the audition room? (sorry muggle friends this you will not follow). Basically they have the ability to drain you of all positivity and leave you feeling deflated after merely 2 minutes of talking to them? well keep away from people like that. not good for the soul.
quote of the week for me this week when a choreographer screamed before the audition began - 'don't be nervous or you'll be shit' .... made me laugh. blunt but true.
I find right now I am always wishing for more time. how can one fit in a class, the gym, some singing, lunch, dinner, errands and work into a day? if I had a magic power it would be to freeze time. or fly?....that'd be pretty ace. let's be honest though - busy is always best - because it means your working towards or for something you care about. and that's important. The more new things I'm trying, whether it's a class, food, place in london... whatever. it makes me happy, so something I'm doing is right. I LOVE learning. I know that fully entitles me to be a nerd. but that's ok. because I've recently heard that they are pretty cool.
IF YOU GOT A DREAM. YOU GOT TO GO ON A JOURNEY TO FULFIL THAT DREAM - Katy Perry. My favourite and anyone who comes out with things like that would be.
As for me - I'm actually in my flat tonight for the first time in WEEKS on the sofa. can't remember the last time I just got to sight on the sofa and watch T.V?? It's nice every now and again. might even have a bubble bath... because I'm worth it.
Happiness doesn't depend on what you have or who you are... it solely relies on what you think - buddha.
I'll leave you on that thought. No Day But Today
M. Summer x
